“What do I say?” It’s always our first thought when contacting a friend who has experienced a loss isn’t it? After experiencing the loss of three babies my first at 12 weeks via D&C , second at 11 weeks via miscarriage, and then another baby in heaven after carrying 12 weeks. I wanted to share… [continue reading]
Miscarriage
The fate of our baby is no longer a mystery. It has been a roller coaster of a ride. From our first sonogram when we were told there was no heartbeat, to the second that showed signs of life and then as I told you last week after our third sonogram, I had been experiencing… [continue reading]
Third Sonogram
Last night I read Proverbs 12:25 in my Bible reading, “Anxiety in the heart of man causes depression, But a good word makes it glad.” (NKJV) I have done my best to fight against that anxiety that could so easily get me down. Some moments it’s been easy, others I’ve struggled. But the second part… [continue reading]
Pregnant with hope
Hope. Surprise. Miracle. These are the words that still ring in my ears. Shock is what I’m feeling, with a little hope thrown in. I was ready for my second sonogram. Last week I had received a “No heartbeat” verdict at just over eight weeks. There had been no sign of life. I lost a… [continue reading]
No Heartbeat
Those words I had heard before. Those words I knew I might hear again. No heartbeat. Just over eight weeks pregnant and at my first prenatal appointment with only my sixteen month old son. This last Thrusday was to be a busy day with doctor’s appointment, errands, picking up kids, and heading to the first… [continue reading]
Funny Kids Quotes #30
We have been enjoying watching the DVDs of 19 Kids and Counting as a family. The night before we had seen Michelle getting an ultrasound and disclosing the gender of one of her babies. My kids were talking about the episode over lunch when one of them asked, “Mom, how does the doctor know if… [continue reading]
Read the Directions!
Pregnancy always wreaks havoc on my gums. First of all I feel like I’m starving all the time, so I end up eating nonstop. Second of all I have a horrible gag reflex when I brush my teeth when I’m pregnant. I do the best I can but, those two things alone are not a… [continue reading]
Postpartum
Just before Bobby was born I began shaking uncontrollably. This had happened to me before. I felt so horrible however, that I didn’t want to hold my baby. I thought I might drop him. When they asked if I wanted to nurse him, I wondered if they were crazy. I felt like I couldn’t breathe…. [continue reading]
Giving Birth
My husband and I arrived at the hospital at six o’clock in the morning for my planned induction. My throat was so sore I could hardly swallow and my husband was coughing and feeling horrible as well. Was this really a good idea? My doctor talked to me and confirmed my own thoughts. If this… [continue reading]
Pregnant or Fat?
When I was pregnant my girls would always say, “Mom, you’re not fat you’re just pregnant.” I probably talked about being huge more than I thought I did. I really felt enormous. I was sitting on the couch with Faith (age 10) holding Bobby (one week old) when, (I don’t know what possessed me.) I… [continue reading]