I was listening to Fawn Weaver from Happy Wives Club speak at Bloggy Boot camp in Dallas a few weeks ago. The conference was almost over, but I had had a wonderful time of learning new things and meeting wonderful people. I was sitting in the very front as Fawn talked about how she got her book deal. This lady is amazing how she went after and pursued her dreams and now just two short years later her book is a reality. Fawn encouraged the audience to think bigger. She was inspiring! Then all of a sudden she pointed to me from the stage! I know I stopped breathing. “Esther…” she paused, “…small goals!” She must have said a few more words, but those are the only three I remember, and then she went on. I was, well, mortified to be honest!
I had connected with Fawn online through a blogger community a couple of years ago and was excited to meet her in person. I had that opportunity just before she went up to speak. As she stood talking to the group of us ladies, she was very much trying to help and encourage. She went around the circle and asked each one of us, “What is your end game?” When she came to me, in a couple of short sentences I summed up my two posts What I learned from Jeff Goins and Why I still call myself a blogger. Basically I told the group that I had already met my blogging goals albeit they were small, and that I was just happy with what I was doing. I don’t have a desire for blogging to be a career. Right now I am a Christian wife, homeschool mom to five, and homemaker. That is my career! Granted it doesn’t pay much! Ha ha!
Blogging has been an avenue for me to realize some of my dreams WITH my family like being able to travel and do some fun things. I don’t want it to take away from my family. Honestly, as I have listened to so many great speakers at conferences I am even more determined to limit my time spent in blogging. I have heard famous bloggers talk about the exciting things about making it big, being on TV, traveling, meeting famous people etc, but when it came to talking about their families and especially their kids there always seems to be regret. I don’t want that regret. I want to be around for my family. I want to be with them.
I am at a place in blogging where I know that I could be doing more, making more with it. Believe me I think about those things. If I do a redesign, work more on SEO, take a photography class to improve my photos, work harder at more informational posts instead of just talking about my family…the list goes on…if I spend the time and money my site and traffic will improve leading to bigger and better opportunities. But guess what? All that takes time and or money, and it’s not time I can afford to spend right now. My family is too important. Now I may slowly work on some or all of those things over time, but it will remain a part time job for me right now. I am actually turning work away. I need the time more than I need the money.
So, yes, my goals for my website may be small, but that’s only because I’m dreaming big in other areas. I have big dreams for my husband and kids, for our family. So what’s my end game? It’s raising children who will love the Lord and want to raise children of their own. It’s growing old with my man and still laughing together when all the kids are gone, and we can’t remember our neighbors’ names. It’s wanting to hear, “Well done good and faithful servant” when this life is over.
Although I was mortified in being called out in front of everyone, I know that Fawn was only wanting to encourage me. I am excited for what Fawn and others like her are accomplishing. But me? I’m more than happy with what I’ve accomplished with my website and maintaining it (for now at least), and that’s okay too!