It was me. I pitched a fit. My husband was standing behind me telling me what to do. I was trying so hard to get it right. He was making me very nervous with the things he kept calling out for me to do. Though I was trying, I just knew I’d end up with it all wrong. When I got to the end, sure enough I had botched everything.
Jason was frustrated with me. Then I lost it. I mean I stood up yelling and screaming and waving my arms all around and really let him have it. It was all in front of my children. No one said anything. My husband turned around and went about doing the job himself that I had been trying to do. I went to work helping my daughter do the dishes. “Look at me,” I berated myself. This was exactly what I tell the kids not to do everyday and here I just put on a horrible display for all to see. No wonder my kids have temper tantrums. They must be following my example! I don’t want to be THAT parent! I CAN’T be that parent.
And so as I was being convicted, I knew what I had to do. I walked over to my husband and told him I was sorry for pitching a fit. And you know what he did? He told me he was sorry, that he shouldn’t have been standing there telling me what to do! I hadn’t expected him to apologize too!
Then I turned around and faced all of my children who were all still in the room. With tears in my eyes I told them that I was wrong to behave that way, and I asked them for forgiveness as well. All of them said that they forgave me and one of my girls came up an hugged me and told me that she loved me–so sweet!
Do you ever look around at church or Sunday School and think how perfect everyone else’s family seems? Well that’s not us. We are not the perfect family that has it all together. We are sinful and make mistakes every single day, but we are thankful that God is working in our lives and hearts to continue to change us and bring us closer to Him!
And even though I had been a horrible example I was also able on this occasion, by God’s grace, to demonstrate how we should make things right when we do wrong each other. I think it is important that our children see that we aren’t perfect and need God just as much as they do, but hopefully you won’t need to pitch a fit in order to show them! 🙂