I held the little plastic pregnancy test in two hands and watched for the positive sign to appear. I didn’t have to wait long. There it was. Positive. Just like I thought. Emotions clashed inside of me. I felt happiness that another life was growing inside me, but immediately the memory of the loss of my last baby came rushing to my mind with all the accompanying emotions. Would I be able to see and hold this child someday or would I lose this one too? As both kinds of thoughts swirled around in my mind I felt somewhat numb. I found my husband and showed him the pregnancy test. He just hugged me.
We decided not to tell people this time until after we saw our doctor, mostly because we think the kids should be the first to know, but also because we didn’t want them to suffer the way they did last time should I have another miscarriage. So I waited for five more weeks until I could see my doctor.
Thursday was my appointment, and Jason met me at the doctor’s office. I was very nervous to see the ultra sound. Our youngest two were with us, but we didn’t tell them ahead of time. Jason decided to go ahead and take them in because he wanted to be there.
I lay down on the cold table and watched the screen as the camera searched for a baby. Then there it was—a little blob of a baby bouncing around! I could see the little heart beating before the technician even pointed it out to me. When she let me hear the heart beat, tears streamed down my face. This baby is alive!
That is when Jason brought it to the kids’ attention. “See, kids, there is a baby in Mommy’s belly. There is the baby’s heart beat.”
Grace looked with big, round eyes and simply said, “I knew that, because I prayed. It’s a boy!”
On the way home she repeated that she had prayed for another baby and added, “Because you were sad and cried, I prayed.” So sweet!
The doctor said that the baby measures exactly like it should and that everything looks perfect. I know, of course, that there are no guarantees and lots could still go wrong. I would appreciate your prayers for a safe and healthy baby and pregnancy!
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Congragulations!
It has been a while since I visit your blog — in fact any blog. I am coming back slowly and I was so happy to read about this news, I feel so glad for you. May God bless you all.
Such wonderful news! Congratulations!
I love your little ones sweet words at the end…
Oh Esther, that is so wonderful! Congratulations!
That is wonderful news! Thanks for sharing this with us! I’ll send over positive thoughts for you and your growing family!
Congratulations! Oh the prayers of our little ones, so sweet and such faith!
We lost our fifth as well, and like you we waited until we saw that little heart beat to tell our children the next time. A dear friend reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11, that verse was such a comfort to me during that pregnancy (and others now!). God has plans for me, our family, and our babies. They are plans to prosper us, not to harm us! His plan is best no matter what, and we can rest in that! I pray you will have a safe, healthy and blessed pregnancy/birth!
This is SO beautiful!!!! This is my first visit to your blog and I am crying!!! (Tears of joy of course) and what a sweet prayer… Oh my goodness, SO happy for you and praying — even now — that God will protect you and this new little life you carry.
Thank you for linking up to my “Encouragement is Contagious” linky party! I am SO honored that you took the time to link up. I’m following your blog and thrilled to meet you today.
Happy Mother’s Day!
Melanie
I don’t know how I missed this post! I was just looking back through your blog and saw…CONGRATULATIONS!!! I’m so excited for you and your family! I’m hoping and praying everything goes perfectly. Happy Mother’s Day!
Congratulations! I read through your posts about your recent loss. It sounds difficult. Your attitude is inspiring. Best of luck to you.
Congratulations. What awesome news.
Oh, Esther! I am rejoicing for you!! I haven’t visited for awhile, and then I get this happy news! God bless you and your precious family!
I missed this days blog! Congratulations! Grace is a powerful prayer
Just getting around to catching up on all this. Wow! Congratulations and praying for a healthy pregnancy!
Congratulations to you and your family!
Aaahhh so sweet! Congrats! Children are blessing from the Lord!
I’m a new follower of your blog, so I got this news late. Congrats to your family
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